i think i do care

lately i possesses some kind of spirit that clearly overwhelmed me to do something that is far from myself....i just learn how to look at people in various way i never imagine before.....days goes as usual and many unpredicted things happens...the wheel is turning on me again....even i ain't notice it yet on which part...but i can feel the kickstart...i feel like fishing,...a lady say to me dude u are so young and love playing with everyone....u have huge desire on your high expectation and taste.....i say to her...what do u expect people nowadays....they're killing each other to live.....they all are barbarian but they ain't notice about themselves.......heard a lot of advice from that lady.....thanx to her i got new chessboard......but i'm not gonna play it my way...i will take the risk and move it backwards to your way.........i want to know what adult way is....when they claim they're adult and mature and know everything....heheheh.......i know right??/my life's is awesome so am i.....ihala!!!!!

live like no tomorrow

today is just another day in the week that i don't even meet the day....which means i live like bloodsucker......day is a harm night is heaven....hehehe.....i plan to survive but so suddenly things happens....i got a crash....and i found that so bad...and changing me far from being me......have a huge distance between her.....its like i'm already be a stranger...so i just keep the malevolence in me and live my way and trying to avoid my dark to plead of her...........i'm really sorry lady.....i can't be good brother for u but i'll try my best as if even i got a tiniest chance to make u happy i will take it at all risk......world i live is nothing impossible as long it comes with its own arrangement...........i realize something...there's only one rule that can broke the rules of physics.........it is MIRACLE i wish i can have miracle right now so that i can make a change for my fault in yesterday.....reason i live today is i can get to play my lies tomorrow.......it always been perfect till that i never have any of hearts left to get the mercy......haiz...........i always make it easy for me which is complicated for others.....i guess that what devil's do...give confusion and throw so do sank people in eternity darkness.............