like yesterday

it seems i'm in deep trouble...i cross the road but i still lost......whenever i feel a little joy a huge disaster will come over me and ruin everything.....that's why i never trust anyone.....they lies to survive on their own purpose.....i teach myself to always pretend like i'm one of them but clearly i'm too best at it......i paste some weird thinking onto their brain and the results are amazing....i still can manipulate everything around me.....include myself....hahahha.....this month of ramadhan makes me realize many things i've done and it all goes wrong when i have the heart of a human...hahaha....soft heart....that what destroy me from the very beginning.......a day without u is like a year in heaven of my own.....naah.....not even a single thing can stop me if i turn to be what i choose to.....your sweet don't even give me a diabetes much more it gives me strength to beat u down to the ground.....i never piss cause i know the one who lose before the game start is the one who lost themselves in their own rage.....

how to get to the point

i try many things and make it right......today's the second day of fasting...i still find myself down...and can't stand.....i just got a lot of support and bless also pray from the loved one.....early last night i sit and cry after i realize i can't stop chasing her shadow and she's knows me better than myself.......lately it become easy for me to sleep as early as 8 a.m. less than that i can't sleep...i feel like if i do sleep night will betray me and take everything i have from me....hahahaha....so funny.....best part is i get what i want.....the best chicken porridge ever....serve with spicy fried beef and lemon tea........i'm in heaven...hahahaha...but still....when people ask me where do u expect u to be after u enter death....i just said.....hell is pleasurable because that's i deserve for what i be when i'm alive....i'm a devil.....hahahaha......just for fun.....