a crater.....

last night sounds so beautiful when i got to see the angel of my life smile and laugh....seriously i'm just tired of all conspiracy and loosen up my guard....visit someone heart and found a pieces of mine in there make me fold all my game and score the phoenix instead of griffin....listen to that one...saying i'm not me anymore make me think...how far i swim across the sea leaving my life behind.....i notice some change but i didn't expect it to be this huge.....my distance is far but my presence is always in your mind heart and soul....i write a new book but i never know what book it would be....i hope the next morning i wak up give me something precious so that i won't need to dive for the treasure.....by that...i believe i'm awesome...indeed....

live beyond godlike........

i got a deep self problem in controlling the pros and cons in me.....i listen to many voice still what i found out they just a noobs....i make a new decision and i cooked a new dish, though i walk through a door at the end i only notice lost what i've own but in my heart i never regret any of that.....peace be upon u in my past.....i just living with my dark passenger i think....what make it difficult to change maybe i hangout too much with my past and not searching for what been told the future.......another week i just love be lonely.....this week happen to be my first love birthday,....i also forgot but out of sudden the alarm on my phone rings and shows out her name.....all i can do is just call her and say hey..remember me....it's your day...happy birthday lady...then i hang up.....hahahah.....what a jerk i be while i with her.....i'm on my way in meeting the parents but i keep postpone it to another time...with the excuses i got classes to attend...the fact is i just not ready for any of those.....i just want to be for me...always for me....neither her or anyone else......and i'm really sorry for my love.....i'm not quite in touch with u cause i'm not in good shape......likely i just hope u'll understand me as usual....and the only reason i be with u is because u understand me more than i can do for myself........i hope my day will have some sun......