i'm coming home

special about today is friday......the day that would be essence of the week more likely.........but i still don't get it...why i'm still apart of it while i should just be me....alone on my path.....besides hurting people's feelings this week i'm doing nothing...got two assignment of the semester need to be done but i just sleeping in pain.....watching that smile keep me alive for tomorrow...........i wonder how high i would climb the mountain and how long can i stands with my pride up there......endlessly..........early today i'll be returning home with my friend.....for the anniversary event of my grandparent's death......today we all will pray for them hoping that god will bless them...........always.....still can find the meaning that i want to......and i don't know why it still bleeding after a year and a half past..........i can hide but i can't withstand the pain...only god knows how deep it hurts me and demolish me from inside.......i just tired to give a damn about it....i'm losing it...............

high experience means nothing

last friday night i go for a birthday party at VR1 club at doraisamy road...the deal is to accompany my house mate who have lost his love and make him forget about it,...funny things about the night is he the one who hold the invitation of the party but he can't enter the party...because the bodyguard says he is underage while i can.....in the club the birthday girl spend 3bottle of chivas 7bottle of black label and 150 bottle of beer....gosh...lucky me they also provide cokes.....i just watch people dancing and getting drunk.....i just sit and watch the people expressing what they tense of by the day they've been through....middle of the joy a milf fall from the dance stage....other people help but the only thing i can do is laugh.....hahahahaha....to drunk and lose control of body are such and idiot things to happen...but pity of her fall to the ground like statue of liberty on the doomsday.....hehehehehe....part of it i met new friends but they all are ............i dance a little just to make it usual....but today i met someone who also taste the sweetness of broke up with her boy all i can do as usual is laugh.....this week i meet most of people with their own broke up story....i hear it out and tell them the best i know....but i on my own can't even tell me what to do to my relationship that i lost by my fault....the disparity is not in them but deeply in me.....gosh...how pity i am.......

squash the orange

stranded in a desert is better if u live in the world that every single person around u play shit with u.....ouwh night is so cold and silence.....piercing what i've done to my heart and bitting my hand so i can realize what i am where i am standing right now....be a person like me and feel like i'm caving inside out....still searching for the meaning of what human call love.....i think if i live alone is the best though he creates me to have pair......because i really don't like the word care.....i do care when i'm close but when it is far.....do it by your own.....because i don't even have time for me......i just want my time!!!!!!at the end still thinking to be an asshole after all...i know that is the best thing to do...because no matter what happen asshole get laid!!!!yeah!!!!

stop and at ease

deep pain still there...meeting some new people and people from past.....pretend to be nothing but inside don't know what happen......quite a lucky day today...win 2 frame on snooker and 3 frame of pool.....kinda bored and want someone that suppose to e the one to realize it.....i got waste and....start to pray at the dawn for the bless from him.....i fell like everything stop and don't event move a single cell.....life is at the peak.....force myself to find what's wrong in me......thank god he still give me his bless after all....less than that ...my past is chasing me....fucking around with me......still make me  some kind of human who can't even stand to fight his past......

should or shouldn't

suppose that i miss and suppose that i care and suppose we are happy with all we've been through.......and i for u.....what i want isn't what u want the difference between me n u make me complete myself more than i can do.....reaching a new era.....praying to god for some deeds and bless.....

fungi and teenager

Should teenager been married at tender age

Time has change, people preferred to focus on their carrier rather than involve in marriage. Statistics quote that beginning of the millennium era the earliest age people get married is at 25’s and above. much people with hi profile carrier tends to get married at middle 30’s or late 40’s. this is consider as problem because when human get older their fertility rates goes down the bar. Does means many of late marriage will have difficulties to get child. Moreover the child will suffer because lack of parental love. This happens when parent was too busy at their office and leave their child at nursery or kindergarten. Else the child only can taste the profit from their parent but not the love and care.

Youngsters that get married early but married to an adult can get life experience in much closer way. As an example young teen at age 17 marry to a guy age 26, she will not only experience to be a young mother but will be expose by her husband to the world in most safest way. Rather than teenagers that explores it on their own. They will certainly get into the reef before they can swim to the shore. Far from that, the society will only give bad response to the early ages couples because they only think get married at young age is such a disaster and throw shit to the family’s name. open up your mind, only at this and two, three decades before people do care about this issue. Yet since the early age of civilization people get married as early as 14. That’s how many legends legacy of civilizations grew and now where we are. If they all be a late marriage only a millennium from now we will have what we have today.

 fungi

The Kingdom Fungi includes some of the most important organisms, both in terms of their ecological and economic roles. By breaking down dead organic material, they continue the cycle of nutrients through ecosystems. In addition, most vascular plants could not grow without the symbiotic fungi, or mycorrhizae, that inhabit their roots and supply essential nutrients. Other fungi provide numerous drugs (such as penicillin and other antibiotics), foods like mushrooms, truffles and morels, and the bubbles in bread, champagne, and beer.

Fungi also cause a number of plant and animal diseases: in humans, ringworm, athlete's foot, and several more serious diseases are caused by fungi. It is because fungi are more chemically and genetically similar to animals than other organisms, this makes fungal diseases very difficult to treat. Plant diseases caused by fungi include rusts, smuts, and leaf, root, and stem rots, and may cause severe damage to crops. However, a number of fungi, in particular the yeasts, are important "model organisms" for studying problems in genetics and molecular biology.

i am me

hi....

so bored and loose today...don't know what to do...my love still hates me......i made her to be an outrages and lost minded one.....gosh what am i doing now.....i don't know if i am me or i be someone that far from me......me just like a magnet to problem....i can sense problem easily and so do i make problem easily....no matter how hard i try to get out of this circle still whennicki i wake up from my sleep i continues completing the circle....damn who i am exactly...i spend this 18 years known nothing about me...it's all about him...the other side of me that i choose to show...not my colour.....why this happen???should i just live freely in my way....hmmmm...i miss my world before the rage in me happen.....i wish i am who i am...my god bless me and send me clue so that i won't step out of your line....so that i still be a humble slave for u.....

quite a peaceful day but so rush in making decision...my relationship status is unknown......hehehehhe...i hope i can ensure it more n i won't hurt that pure heart that love me again...please i'm begging u....behave for the happiness of others affad!!!!!!

beep

so much of misery for me today...kinda busy week....and drag me in conscious despair.....still heard the voice of insanity in me...plenty of work but still i don't have deeds to make it done.....don't makes friends at college because they're bunch of idiots that results give me nothing but mess up my life after all.....forgiving and apologizing happens this week....but clearly it is not acceptable....moreover i'm tired with my life....i don't know what else to be done.....and what left inside me for myself......everything need to be fucking perfect...!!!!how could i make it if i'm just a human.....even a prophet ever made mistakes why not me......hmmmmm.......