i'm coming home

special about today is friday......the day that would be essence of the week more likely.........but i still don't get it...why i'm still apart of it while i should just be me....alone on my path.....besides hurting people's feelings this week i'm doing nothing...got two assignment of the semester need to be done but i just sleeping in pain.....watching that smile keep me alive for tomorrow...........i wonder how high i would climb the mountain and how long can i stands with my pride up there......endlessly..........early today i'll be returning home with my friend.....for the anniversary event of my grandparent's death......today we all will pray for them hoping that god will bless them...........always.....still can find the meaning that i want to......and i don't know why it still bleeding after a year and a half past..........i can hide but i can't withstand the pain...only god knows how deep it hurts me and demolish me from inside.......i just tired to give a damn about it....i'm losing it...............