stop and at ease

deep pain still there...meeting some new people and people from past.....pretend to be nothing but inside don't know what happen......quite a lucky day today...win 2 frame on snooker and 3 frame of pool.....kinda bored and want someone that suppose to e the one to realize it.....i got waste and....start to pray at the dawn for the bless from him.....i fell like everything stop and don't event move a single cell.....life is at the peak.....force myself to find what's wrong in me......thank god he still give me his bless after all....less than that ...my past is chasing me....fucking around with me......still make me  some kind of human who can't even stand to fight his past......