it's already raya......

times goes by so fast till i not really notice it's already been hari raya.....create another emotion for this day but then the havoc n overwhelming spirit of the day that i hope to rule me over never make it to what i expected....i've lost about half of my seed when i try not to be what i used to....and i love u....whenever red turn to blue i know it turns to worst everytime... everytime i praise Allah i know he will never let me down....the eldest told me they never saw such a dirty heart as mine....they just pray me never lose myself upon something that i'm chasing upon....but then i know what best for me is to held upon my mother and keep giving her full commitment and support so she keep strong walking along her road....less than that i notice i just be more than me,....i pleased myself whenever i'm not in a good shape to do so....the best thing is i'm in my own world and people start to like it that way.....