make this day more beautiful

last night i go met her and the feelings seems like i don't know what i feel.....the fact i'm just the devil besides u.....never stop listen to u and make it worst.....i believe i never return to my old me...because that bastard wasn't so racist like now....now i be so much racist more than i wanted n i like it.....feel so close but i don't even get the aura that i hope so.....still at my hometown meet the people of my past but still no nostalgia happens....so sudden i just love it be this way.....today i not notice what best to do...then i decide to do my laundry and think how much my hatred and the vendetta has grown in me....and i never wish to stop any of it....the only thing i hope is one day i say it loud "i don't feel anything anymore!!!".....baby maybe i'm not best eligible for u and i just want you to know u don't have to worry....whenever u want to leave and step away i pleased u to do so....too long being alone and i'm getting too much into it.....