zz in weird mood....

long time i've been into silence and in quite deep...i let things be in their own miracle while the other part in which in my control i let it be like i want to.....celebrating my birthday on last weekend and quite sorrow but i'm happy it be like that.....i celebrate together with my mom.....best part is she cried for joy...blow the candle with the wish that i can see my mom stand from her wheel and walk like normal people do.....but i don't tell her any of that....got some calls from people of my past...and shock me out they still remember my day....but nothing left in me to remember any of that....most of all i just feel my side that empty before is slowly getting occupy by my deeds......life's hard but it needs some joy to make it easy.....love myself.....no matter what happen i know i'm awesome...and i was born to live on the top.....