a blue rose for tomorrow

today i'm so regret because i've disappoint the one that waited for me for so long....many chance given to me but what i do just keep wasting it.....i just blur......to be honest id don't know why i took the shortcut instead of the normal path i use to reach bus stop everyday when i go out.....maybe something not good is opposing me if i do go.....i hope she'll understand it.....and i hope i never waste any chance that i get.....2 hours from now according to my count i already spent 2 days not sleep at all....but still i cant sleep tonight because i've make the heart of mine in pain.....i never mentioned how much my love could be and how i show it....the only thing is i never lie about loving u,.....i bury all my pain and sickness deep in me and i never wish to release it because i'm to afraid to face the fact as if i'm losing u......i wish i got another saturday to live on to make that one come true.....with my faith i live and with my pride i die.....