i don't know

i'm all alone but i'm not alone...still boring and losing my deeds in continuing what i'm chasing all over this year....then time pass and i'm really don't have a single second for myself.....instead of being dragged into others world.....pity of me.....suggestion keep coming to my head but i need to make decision which one can make a change in my life.....pretend to laugh and sad is a routine...but in other side i feel so disgrace with my disable to live my way......god help me out....part of it still have some meanings to be remembered in my life....looking outside the window i i found a world beneath the world i' living now.....world that no one would ever been there to mess it.....so tired but can't afford to sleep.....hehehehehehe.....