really???

simple thing but i just be the cause of the issue hate myself hardly.....want something that can cheer me up...i mess my life to it...i don't know why.....i really thought that thing would be okay if i do keep a distance until my self is sink in me...but on the other hand she still make me wonder what else???hmmm.....i'm tired and hope a bless from u god...show me the way...easily so i won't hurt anyone anymore....one thing i got today is never lies to the one who believes u and never believe to someone that lie to u.......i respect her but still what the thing that would make people satisfied!!!!!!argh.....i'm killing myself.......i'm just a normal person who lives on my way and work on my destiny.......please don't ask me to do the god's grief or the god's wrath......i'm begging u.....my breaking point is vanishing others...please......know me and live and love me.......