a sorrow life

gosh its really hard for me to sleep tonight....i dunno what will happen early this day but i wish nothing bad happen...GOD thanx u keep me live till today so that i an feel and see your holiness everyday and praise upon u the creator.....alhamdulillah after i've been through this hard week i manage to survive with HIS help.....feel wanna someone to talk...the one who never knows me and the one who are ready to hear me out..i never wish it from the person i've already known.....i only expect it from totally strangers...hmm.....how would that be....something cheer me up today is that person give me space for myself like i wish.....thanx....for being understanding person to me....not going mad to anyone but kinda bored sunday...have a mountain of debt to be solve....and still a little bit try to change although its hard...only think in my brain and heart is my mom...my angel and my everything....i can't afford to live without u mom.....hmm2.....by end of this day...i got  5 minutes to spend with myself then....kinda long time since the last time i updated my blog....but no matter what it takes GOD still gives me chance to be awesome.....alhamdulillah......