really sorry auni didn't mean that way.....

waking up in the afternoon and realize i'm still in this body..how it feel if your soul is rip off from your body and left it cold and freeze....i only believe what i want to...what happen to me i don't care...if Allah will it to meant that way i accept it with all my heart.....still hoping for forgiveness and come back to be together....else just live alone in the past like i do every single second in my life.....people would stare to the bad but will find the false by the right.....the rules to live is don't get killed.....what i do that make i lost the one whose best for me is like piercing pain to my heart and stabbing it till bled it out.....while busy with examination i don't have any mood to move forward or backward i just still stand on the same ground i ever step.....the tense is all about my fate in his hand...why he creates me???i don't know...only i know the answer is hell and heaven...we choose where we want to and we act like one....making everyone mad at me because too long staying at hometown and leaving the job to else.....maybe i just want to die...maybe i'm not belong to myself......what suppose i do if i still living without u.....two things that shows a person is man are financial and women.....both not a problem to me but yet my problem is myself only loves to live in shadow....that hurts me more than a saw right to my arm......look in the mirror and talk to me...look what've u done at the end u suffer to the ground alone.....i lost my faith and i'm struggle to get it back......my day is empty by the time pass continues to torture me,,,,,,,....miss my dear little friend that i've been rude because of something idiots happened and i ignores her that time......less than that i only want u to know i love u for the eternity.....