it is amazing on another part

one time i past the other time i failed myself...what's left behind is what i called experience.....experience happens by mistake we've made by our own will.......instead of living on others way i trust myself to search for and be me......patience and faith is what i have just now......everything can be replace except our heart...in which it has a job to make our lifetime as best as ever be....placing me on top of my list is what i do to get the stress out of me......having someone is wonderful losing someone is hatred and hate.....the end of hope will never be happiness only left is despair.....tons of fish in the sea i still pick u as my favorite....that's what someone said to me before she left.....not for other but forever left the world......the world that full of beauty but clearly it killing us.....just now i walk with my feet with nowhere to go...life's harder than die.....nothing to be blame because many chance have been given to me but i just be a son of a bitch.....more and more everyday i just lost one side and more from me......listen to me,listen to me the heart says but i don't......i never listen to my heart because my perception is only logical......tense to live and believe but i prefer to be dead......rest in peace......nothing to worries about only left is rot in the grave.......and turn to dust......