sense the last from the begining......

apparently i just waste a little precious time of my own by my acts......nobody should be blame on this except me myself.....truly i just want it to be special but reality happen far from what i've been expected......listen to my voice and only i heard is regrets......more or less i don't have time,even for myself.....i don't know what happen to me lately...i got fever and keep sick and down.....i miss her so much....she ain't return or reply to me.....i just hold my phone and waiting without knowing that i already be left alone in my dark rift......moreover my patience is not fit on my purpose of continue living...everything happens always drive me to insanity without any doubt......strongly i begin to evade my knowledge and let myself end up suffer by my own......strange about that is i noticed every part of it but i still got into it......still remember the advice.....no matter how hard u try u still chasing for the death....indeed i should let it go sometime....it way far to better than sink with it.......