less than all but more than a few

i have an amazing days out of the misery for a while.....i don't know if i could trust anybody include me after i get betrayed in ways i realize but i don't take any step to be cautious....i just let myself driven by the insanity in me......people imagine of things they don't understand....when they stopped is it right for them to knows without understand what is it.......i got many clue but i never use it to help me.....i got people who loves me and i love still i cry on my own than i talk to them......what's wrong with me i don't know what i wanna be i don't know and what i born to be i'm getting away and kept denying it.......can someone let me out of my rage and give me a hug and says you're a like a child who only knows to cry it out when u got problem but u never will to solve it?????i keep asking for apologize from everyone but do i ever forgive myself?????my ears hear the voice that channel me to your path god but why am i let myself to be son of a bitch.......i relive when i write and i burdened when i feel i got everybody to tell me what i need to do.....hear the song alone and taste the essence of talking to the moon.......early till the end the moon keep give me smile in the middle it give me shape that is empty to let me fill it with my guilt in me.....to let me put the burden on it......apart of that i win 2 frame on snooker with my friend yesterday with 24 and 37 points leading him...yeah i'm awesome....hehehehehehe