wishing stars

part of me hate it and yet the other part is going insane about it.......what tends to be something i decided change suddenly when i look at her........seeing my roommate in love but denying his feelings make me feel i'm much awesome than him....i curse myself from my mistake i've made in my past.....my world ain't stop craving in and i'm turning inside out.......geez god...everyday i pray for your bless but my heart and have enough faith to get it......i try it out to struggle for your light but i'm just keep getting far from u......urm.....i'm so desperate and i'm burning inside me.......i didn't even forgiving myself......i just keep blaming me deeds of what bads coming.....something creeping me out is why i just turn so easily ever after i met my heart....i feel like i'm losing it more than the time when i was searching for it........what's the best for today is i got into coma after almost three days i ain't get sleep......hahahaha...i ain't sure coma is the right words but to me i still stands on my feet after all without relying on someone else......naahhhhhh.....,i'm awesome....